Had an awesome reception. Tons of people came. I talked to and met a lot of cool people. A lot of them were drunk. I had this one guy who was really interested in my painting "Modern War-Effort" he says he had a dream similar to it. He might want to buy it as well which would be pretty awesome. I gave him a business card with contact info. Also another guy who was interested I gave a card to. He knows someone in Oakland who has a gallery or something. Said he would refer me. Pretty excited hopefully the guy buys the painting. His name is Dave by the way.

Pretty awesome night. Huge crowds and oodles of people asking me about my work. I was so beat from talking for 3 hours strait that I hung out with Hailey and my friend Mile who came with me to the show till 2am and then went to sleep and woke at 12:00 the next day. Pretty awesome night all in all.

Hope to do it again sometime.

Big art show in 2 days.

Reception going from 7pm to 10pm

Second Saturday opening at a tattoo gallery in Sacramento. There's a promoter involved with this place so many people are sure to show up. It's going to be fucking happening. Hopefully I can get some pictures to document this night. I'm also showing in an art gallery for emerging artists that's literally right by the tattoo gallery. I am really excited for Saturday night.

That is all...

Meh.

Not much to say.

Or rather not much I'm willing to delve into my mind to type out.

Hopefully next week will be better.

3 day weekend for me though :)

I need a fucking job :(

and a car :(

and a license :(

I've started a band with 3 other friends. I'm the vocalist... We don't know what kind of music we are so far but we've currently made a bluesy type song and a progressive rock song. Our name is The Waltz... so far we've only had 2 practices but... yeah

I'm really worried about my friend Brandon. about 2 weeks ago he attempted suicide with painkillers and was submitted to a ward for a few days and then came back to school. He was back for a week but he wasn't at school at all this following week. I don't think he's dead because I would have heard about it by now but I'm sure he's in the ward again. I think he's been having a hard time but with what I have no idea. He's gay so maybe he feels lonely? I hope I hear from him soon.

I'm being put in a gallery in Sacramento. The Barton Gallery. I'll also have a show in a tattoo gallery literally right next door. More details will be posted.

2nd day of tutoring and.... waaaaaoooooh. I tutored this kid in the remedial English class and this kid wasn't necessarily defiant... more kind of resistant. We went through this packet and he had to comprehend it. He stated that he hated reading and the only reading he did like was "manifestos". "What manifestos do you like?" I inquired. He freaking tells me in all seriousness the manifesto of the uni-bomber. Later after talking to his teacher for a little she said that he has a hard time connecting things and doesn't really make conclusions. Then without previous knowledge of me knowing, she tells me he had a month long obsession with the uni-bomber and wouldn't talk about anything else. Apparently this is the only thing he can relate on and make connections. She tells me that he has a lot of issues and that goes to therapy, etc.

He also said he wants to be a steel worker when he grows up. Meeeeeeeh. He was somewhat dumbfounded by me being be a tutor and told me I seemed more like a kid "who cusses out his teaches and skates around in class" I don't think I resemble Bart Simpson but I guess I'll take it as a compliment.

Note to Self: Make friends with this kid because it's very probable I'll see him in the near future.

Also check this out...

So today I tutored my first kid. I'm strictly an English tutor. We revised a rough draft of an essay and I don't really know how much help I was but I'm not going to tutor in this class again so there is not much I could have done. I guess I paved the way to the next step. Tomorrow I'm tutoring in a Remedial English Class and from what I've heard these kids are truants. Hopefully I can whip these sorry fucks to shape... no it's probably going to be the other way around. This is good practice for when I become a teacher though.

Not much to report on

Well I'm trying to get back into the Livejournal flow. A lot has happened since we last talked. I have my art in a tattoo gallery currently. 10 pieces of it too, they really liked it. It's somewhat of a deserted place though... but that's okay. In March I'm showing in this big tattoo gallery in Sacramento and I went to the reception to this same place and it was packed which was surprising since no one was out that night since it was so cold. I can only imagine the outcome on a more warmer night.

I got new classes and I am doing AP art which is pretty dull because all you do all day is fix up your old paintings to be sent to New York to be judged by some bigwigs. The trouble is the majority of my actual good work is stuck in that tattoo parlor. Hmmm.

I also switched into ceramics from military history since that class was bunk and the teacher admitted to having A.D.D. I guess they are making sculpted boxes in ceramics which sounds like fun. I didn't exceptionally well in ceramics last semester. I need to take pictures of what I've been doing for the past month. Anyhow I'm entering the class tomorrow.

For 3rd period I have peer tutoring which should be pretty fun. The class is full of different kind of people who all have some area of expertise... mine is English. They all seem like pretty nice people and I would like to get to know them better. It's a pretty personal class from what I've gathered. We have parties every Friday. One day I'll get to force my music on others. Cool.

Well I'll start keeping this constant. Till then au revoir.

Hey everyone I'm back. I'm hoping to get back into posting more often but promises are so hard to keep... not much new except for 3 new paintings... meh. I also did some awesome ceramics too. Got a PS3 for Christmas....

It's amazing I don't feel like such a scrooge this year. This has been the first Christmas ever since I was a little kid that I've actually been excited about. I'm getting tons of stuff for other people and a bunch of surprises for my lady. I, myself, am getting a PS3 which I'm enthralled about. Pooling of money went into that just so you know. My family doesn't have enough income to get me a 400 dollar gift on there own. I'm really excited. I think the reason this Christmas is going to be so awesome besides the reasons already listed is that the fact that no one is really out shopping as much as the years before due to the economic drearies. Leaves less competition and makes things a whole lot bearable. People are spending a lot less around here because they're afraid that their million dollar mansions are going to be foreclosed. My family however, poor as we are, weren't as stricken as hard for that very reason. Christmas financially has stayed the same, however competition for goods have gone waaaaaay down. I couldn't be more merry. This 2 week winter break isn't going to go without work though. I still need a show somewhere... anywhere! and soon. It seems that I've condemned myself by painting such dark stuff in such a conservative area. I keep getting denied. I need somewhere that will take my work and take it now. If anyone has any ideas of places that wouldn't mind taking dark work please tell me. I know you don't know where I live but just a simple idea or establishment would be great. I'm very desperate at this point. Along with all that I still need to finish a painting over this break that I'm pretty pumped about if it actually turns out good. Also I have to read Ordinary People for some extra credit... I should probably do that now. so much to do and on my break too.... fffffffuck.

I have absolutely no time to post but soon I will... hopefully

This is my new work from this year but I have 2 others finished which I haven't taken pictures of yet. I'm going to try and get into a gallery today. I'll tell you all how that goes. I have to stop typing because my hands are cooooold.

News works will be posted shortly (most likely) 3 total. I haven't had much time to post. School is slaying me and I need to savor every second of my free time... hence this short entry.

Sometime soon, bye bye.

I hate Thanksgiving.

It is the worst holiday and I mean that.

Care to prove me wrong?

Just another reason to shovel shit into our maws. A traditional reason. How about we abstain from eating food on this day and be thankful it isn't like that everyday for people who can afford it.

Seriously you should always count your blessings. Holidays are just ways for that given area to make money with a "traditional" back story behind it which turns out, usually, to have some sort of pagan root.

I also hate Thanksgiving food. I mean... it's just so wholesome and.... ughh.

Only good thing about it is apple pie and that's not even a guarantee.

I dunno Valentines day is pretty crappy as well. How much of a cunt do you need to be to be reminded that you love someone... But I guess I'm thinking too far into this.

I guess you can call me scrooge.

Happy Holidays dear reader.

Perhaps it'd be best for the world to have another Great Depression.

We'd be enlightened, maybe. We wouldn't take things for granted and maybe consume less and fill that empty void with things that matter like love and what not.

Or perhaps, seeing the influence of current culture, it would bring the worse out of us and we'd be no better than animals. Maybe it was like that back then and no one talks about it. I have no idea.

I wasn't there.

So I've been informed that this gay kid named Garrett has some sort of stalker crush on me. As slightly creeped out at this as I am I'm also a little flattered. Got to take the compliments where they come... hmmm. The really frightening part of this is that I've never met this kid, properly anyways. I have no mental image of him in my mind. He just told my friend Adrien who I guess is his friend to go to me and say "Garrett want's you to know he thinks you're hot" in which I respond "Who the fuck is Garrett and is he a boy?" She thought it quite comical... I dunno just thought it was pretty awesome. My first admitted gay attraction.

I'm just really hoping I can make it through tomorrow in one piece. I need to pass this Othello test in English. I think I've prepared pretty well. Probably more than anyone else. I hope that's enough. I re-read every act after we read it in class and just yesterday did I read the entire play over and now I am looking up information on the internet about it...

God give me strength.... UHHHH!


Just tomorrow and I can have my Thanksgiving break! Yesss.

I haven't been updating a lot. Haven't really been able to... All I can say is I keep getting snubbed by people. I submitted an awesome drawing of a kid screaming in a car while it was careening off a cliff for the drunk driving program at my school "Every 15 Minutes" and they denied my work that took an hour of work and shading and instead choose some shitty pure black silhouette of a girl laying on the ground and it say's underneath it "At least she doesn't have to worry about her college applications" This was for a fucking t-shirt and instead of actually choosing something that had love put into it they chose some crappy silhouette drawing... life is unfair but I'm used to it by now. I guess a car crashing off a cliff was too morbid for something that deals with the death of intoxicated teens...go figure.

I signed a little paper for the Art Institute because a speaker came into my economy class and it seemed really cool because they say Video Games production is rising rapidly and far surpasses both movies and music in sales. A multi Billion dollar business. I thought it would be an awesome thing to be a concept artist for the art of games so I signed up for someone to call me and this dude named Kevin keeps buzzing me and wants me to make all these fucking obligations and come visit the campus but I still need to go to community college and gets shit done. I don't even think I'd be able to get support for this shit so I don't want to be making any promises. This dude called me 4 times today and once yesterday and I said I needed to get back to him on how I'd be funded. I am not going to an media arts school right now. I wasn't planning on it and I need time to think about it dude. Lay off and stop trying to take money I don't have. Like what the hell I can't do this my grandparent's would fucking kill me. I need to do this on my own accord... But it would be a lot of fun bu the guy whose calling me is so monotone and seems like a little prick and doesn't laugh or anything when I'm trying to be friendly. It's like fuck off...I dunno he just wants my money.

Currently I'm doing a self portrait of myself and I'm pretty excited about it. I can't say much else but I'm feeling pretty good about it. I'm doing it partly because I may be able to submit it in a self portrait contest at some gallery and then I won't have to worry about getting an art show because that would be it. I'm really busy right now and that would just be a huge relief if I could have that secured. I probably would go out and try to seek some other way to show my work but if I could have that than I'd be worry free. This Thanksgiving break I'm hoping to find a gallery that will show my work but around this time it's hard because everyone is starting to get stuff set up for Christmas. I guess December is a big time for people to purchase art from galleries. I hope I didn't miss out on that piece of bacon. It'd be fucking awesome to sell another art piece.

It just doesn't seem like even my paintings fit in at the galleries around Sacramento. I guess the art movement there is with bright colors. I guess people there like their colors. I'm a morbid fucker and don't enjoy using much color. Well maybe I do I dunno. I'm just pretty morbid... umm EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY!

Well it feels good to be back posting. I'll try to do it more. I keep forgetting to document my life. It's important to do that I suppose.

This happened last week but read what happened in this upstanding, high class community I live in. The laughs will follow shortly...or not.

"PLACER COUNTY, CA - Two teenagers from Granite Bay are in custody on suspicion of attempted murder and conspiracy in the driveby shooting of a 16-year-old at a Roseville fast-food restaurant Wednesday afternoon.


Justin Mathew Wittkop, 18, and a 17-year-old girl were arrested just after midnight for the shooting, said Roseville police spokeswoman Dee Dee Gunther.


According to Gunther, the shooting took place following a fight between two groups of teens at McDonald's restaurant on Sierra College and Douglas boulevards around 3:45 p.m. Wednesday. After the first group of teens left the restaurant, the second group was standing outside on the sidewalk when moments later a silver sedan drove by and several shots were fired at the teens.


The wounded boy was transported to Sutter Roseville Medical Center. His injuries were not believed to be life-threatening and he is expected to fully recover, Gunther said. A friend of the victim said the teen was a student at Granite Bay High School.


Another vehicle believed connected to the shooting is an older burgundy four-door sedan, possibly a Chrysler.


Wittkop is being held without bail in Placer County Jail. The girl, who was not identified because of her age, has been booked into Placer County Juvenile Hall."


Now the strange thing is that the girl is my next door neighbor and I've known her my whole life. I've known her boyfriend for a while as well. They are both fucking idiots and have always been. Her boyfriend was a drug dealer. Mostly weed. He drove around a nice BMW and seemed to be a spoiled little fuck. The way the confrontation started that hasn't been released is this. I heard it from my friend Marshall who is even closer to them. The story is that "the girl" pinched a stack of weed that they were selling to the victim and his buddies. They noticed this and I suppose they got brash with her and I guess they attempted to choke her. She then promptly went to her man and drove by the kids walking back home. She bent over and her boyfriend fired shots over her back. It's weird because I will not be seeing these two fuckers for quite sometime. They didn't really rub me as real "thugs" seeing as everyone around he thinks they are. I still don't believe that if you listen to rap music and drive a nice car you're a thug... Thank you MTV for the awesome insight into what stupid little punks strive to be.

I got money in the bank. No I made bank. Well I sent my painting this last Saturday. And yes the money is now tangible. 120 dollars after the 30 I had to spend on shipping. Next time I'm including that in the overall cost. Overall I'm happy. In fact I'd say I was pleased. I need to save up for a bike so I can be more mobile. I would get a job but my current schedule is extremely hectic and I need to go easy on myself. As a present to myself I bought the whole Watchmen graphic novel for 16 dollars at Target. I've barely sliced into it but I love it so far. I hope someday I can start as awesome of a graphic novel. I'm trying to get as much good influence as I can to develop my own fresh and original style. So far I've read Arkham Asylum, Sin City, and of course Watchmen. JTHM if you count that as one too I suppose.

Halloween was pretty sweet. Me and Hailey and 2 of her co-workers went to a huge party and it was nice because I knew a lot of the people so I didn't feel all left out like I originally thought. Your beloved didn't get under any influence. I'm as clean as a whistle and plan to stay that way for a looooong while. One of Hailey' Co-workers got "Cross-Faded" for the first time so we had to baby sit her so no creepy drunk fuckers would attempt to get in her pants, or more appropriately skirt. I was a Roman for Halloween. Well my title for it was "Jesus Killer" but yeah. All in all it was rather fun. I know I had more to say but I can't remember. My current painting looks really fucking awesome and I can't wait to show the likes of the intranet. I'm excited to finish it. My oil one didn't come out so good though.... yeaaaah. Whatever. My life is pretty awesome though right now.

I had no time to go on my "Crusade" because it's been raining all week long and today is election day. I thought today was Veteran's Day but I guess that's next week. Therefore I have no good time I can stay up and go around in the dark reaches of the night. I don't think it would do any good at all to take them now that everyone has voted... Maybe I can just serve as a clean up committee. Maybe I'll still do it only under the condition that the prop is rejected and Gays will be able to marry. It'd be a funny little taunt it in their faces once they lost. Hmmmmm. My "Crusade" may have to be reworked.... Maybe I'll call is "Crusade Clean-Up" MUHAHAHAHAHA!

Life is pretty much going in my favor right now. I mean painting hasn't been going all that well and I've been kind of cheating on that faithful love with a mistress by the name of Ceramics but I never said I was 100% committed to painting in the first place. It's a great feeling when you finish something and sometimes it's worth the turmoil but it's so annoying looking at the flaws in your paintings and wishing you could fix it. With ceramics it's different because you can almost always see the end result and regrets are so much less. No surprises. It's a lot easier to fix problems in sculpting than it is in painting. It's always in front of you and so easy to alter. Painting you sometimes have to figure out the exact color you used for some area that you didn't fill in right or was too dark. I mean the exact ratio of colors and everything! Sometimes colors change pigment when they dry as well so it's hard to tell if that color that looks right it actually going to stay that way.

It's rather frustrating and as much as I like painting I am starting to like ceramics a lot more. Too bad it's way too expensive to carry on a ceramic hobby than painting. Guess I'll stick to my faithful friend the pen for the rest of my days. Which is fine I bet I'll improve beyond my craziest dreams 5, 10 years down the road. That's what's already happened. I'm excited for the future. Anyways my oil painting didn't turn out too well. I mean me being nit picky and what not, I personally despise the thing but others won't see all the mistakes I see. That's another thing. You don't know if anyone is going to notice if you messed up. I'm pretty sure people overlook these things though. I never see any imperfections in other paintings but I know there are probably tons. Also no one is looking for problems when they assume the piece is done. They only look at the big picture which is nice.

I guess I am too talented in other things to be perfect at painting... I want to continue I just... I don't know I need to think about it.

My Ceramic vase is going to be fucking awesome though. I've got 2 of the drawings I posted on my journal on it and a plethora of others. The drawings, which are still up, that I'm going to sculpt on it are the guy with his face being stretched with hooks and the boil face guy. Exciting stuff. Also my friend said he'd help me set up a real website for my art and what not so I'm trying to get that going. Only 4 to 5 dollars a month. Pretty spectacular I know.

Life has been pretty good.

Also we started reading Othello today in class and I already really like it. I am excited.

A message about Prop 8

As some of you may not know seeing as how I don't know if you're from California or not a proposition is being put into question. This said proposition is called Prop 8 and is against the legal marriage between same sex couples. Seeing as how 2 very close friends of mine are gay of course I'm going to have to vote No on the proposition. Well I won't be able to vote when the time comes but you get the picture. I don't usually have any insight on political issues but this one I'd like to address.

Now being the most largely populated Republican county in California you could see why someone like me is somewhat bothered. You should see the ridiculous reaches people have gone to to make there point about how much they fucking hate faggots in a civil and upstanding way. Lawns are plastered with those proposition boards. A handful of houses have up to 3 separate "Yes on Prop 8" signs. One house has at least 5 taped to the roof and one taped on the flag pole up there along with the Red,White and Cerulean. It's complete discrimination. These people don't care some much about the prop but more the idea of stripping away the rights of the homosexual community. Being in a strongly religious community this is expected. Everybody just loves the Old Testament. I wonder if Jesus would say the same things I've heard these "Christians" say. Somehow I doubt it. I know a lot of them aren't saying it but I know they are bothered by this... Shall I say "minority". Oh wait not in America! Minority's aren't welcome here!

But at least we all have a group we can all hate on now that isn't a specific color.

So I'm going to propose a crusade. I want to find a few people for my cause and we can go around the neighborhood at night and steal as many signs as possible. I want to dress up and hide my face with some crazy bandanna or something and look like a bandit. I think it'd be pretty fun. First I need to find enough people who'd be interested. We could come up with code names and everything. Heh heh it'd be pretty fucking sweet...

I hope I get to that it'd be a lot of fun... Maybe later on after everyone goes to sleep on Halloween. Everyone is going to be tired therefore they wouldn't rouse easily... And if anybody saw me I could just be some trick or treater I would just have to keep finding hiding spots for the signs. I'm excited I feel like causing mischief... yep.